The job and the whole thing about it.

Last 2 weeks I was terribly disappointed at my working environment. The people were just hopeless.
At that point of time, I was totally in bad mood, not feeling like working anymore. This is most probably due to the amount of emotions that have amounted to the max capacity. Until I decided to quit this job by end of this month, just asap.
But I prayed again about it.. So happened that that week was a 9-days Novena prayer together with the whole community of 'Bunda Perawan Maria'. Few days before it happened, we started the prayer and I sent to them my intentions as well as to some friends with whom I prayed with.

One of my intentions was for my future, and especially to be able to further my studies..

And this happened.. and when I told to my parents that I was going to quit, my dad gave me some suggestions on a few things that I could do after I quit the job..
(My dad doesn't like the working hours of my job, but he questioned me when I told him that I wanted to quit the job.. )
Anyways, the ideas were so attracting. Yet, as much as I love his idea, I still have my own plan and concern on my financial. I've grown up and worked, obviously if that's possible, I don't want to get a whole financial support from my parents.. But looking at my salary at this point of time, this is not going to work for me..
I was thinking if this is something related to my prayer all this while.. (I've witnessed myself that Novena prayer never fails, btw).

Having finished the 9-days Novena, my friend and I decided to continue the prayer.. I agreed and I continued praying until today, but with a different Novena (Novena Hati Kudus Yesus). After praying about the job, I decided to quit by end of next month..

Nevertheless, it is not my will be done, but Yours be done (Luke 22:42). Until last weekend, things changed. All of the sudden, I felt like I should stay here longer..
1. It's not good for my CV
2. The people could actually be nice. They perhaps are just 'like that' (if you know what I mean) - politics at work.
3. I am weak when it comes to music! We're having this singing performance and I joined them once, and honestly I enjoyed it. I do enjoy singing anyway. haha.. Can't wait for Christmas carolling though. Lol.

However, if there's a better choice, I'd still go for it. =D

God can really make your day perfect, as perfect as your downs turned to be your Ups!

God bless.

Happy 65th Independence Day, our Indonesia!

This morning we had a Flag ceremony at the hotel.
It was really nice being a part in the ceremony after -+6 years since the last time I had a National Flag ceremony..

God really blessed the whole ceremony, though it was cloudy and soon going to rain, but everything went well. The rain got to fall down once after it was over. :)

Then as for me, I went straight to gym, went home and back to the hotel, for Work!

Jiayou!

ps: Hopefully, all the prayers spoken were really the intentions of everyone, especially the government and others who are involved in it. Amen.

Bday Wish

It's been few months since my last post..
I've been thinking to encourage myself to write daily on God's blessings to me. But laziness always covers that up. :|
And this time, while I am not busy at work and I have the courage.. I shall post something here!

The Month of August has finally come again, which means that I am soon going to be 23 this year!
I often see people when it comes to their birthdays, they will have a list of birthday's wishes, mostly on goods / stuff that they can't (don't want to) get on their own. So by having it listed, they wish that someone somehow will give it to them as the bday gift. No offense, this is interesting, isn't it? :)

So then I was tempted to do the same. You can imagine, there are lots of good stuffs out there right now. IPhone! Big Digital Camera with higher quality zoom! Fashion!
But then again, this thought always comes into mind..
which is I shouldn't expect for goods as my bday presents. If I were to do that, I'd be a person who focuses on worldly things. "Do not love the world or the things of the world" - 1 John 2:15
For the world is not-conserved while God is eternal and everlasting.

And now my wishes shall also be eternal, that is to follow Him and be open to His calling, Amen.
Not to forget on this beautiful and courageous verse as well: "Let us not grow tired of doing good, for in due time we shall reap our harvest, if we do not give up" - Gal 6:9

God bless.

Studying in Europe

I was applying for a scholarship in one of the universities in Italy, yes Italy.
(though I prefer France better, but anywhere in Europe will do! :))

I went through the phone interview as the last step last Friday.
And today I received the news.
It has both good and bad news.
The good news is that I am eligible for the scholarship.
The bad news is that it's only amounted 20% of the tuition fee.
Euro 18,000 - 20%, this means it only saves me Euro 3,600. And I still have 14,400 to pay for, excluding the living cost etc...

I am not meant to study again.. :(

40 years in Priesthood

Today marks the celebration of 40 years Father Sinnema serves as a Pastor. In addition to memorize the feeling and memory that he felt 40 years ago, he requested the Church choir to sing some Latin songs.. Agnus Dei etc..

Wow man, I cried during the mass. And this reassures me that my Faith is more than anything one can imagine. The Holy mass, especially with Latin version is really a Grandeur mass. It is so splendid and the echo of the liturgical music with the choir simply completes the whole mass process.

I could feel what Pastor felt 40 years ago..

Some people often say that they're not growing in the Catholic church, or even the Catholic is boring, the mass that is monotone etc.. But if you actually feel what I have felt all these 4 years, Catholic is simply awesome! From it's origin, history, traditions, and experience, this totally made up the reason of being a Catholic itself.
Who says Catholic is just being quiet during the mass, follow the order of the mass, and you receive the communion, NO. It is more than that, you want to praise and worship God, you go for it. Lift up your hands to the Lord, sing out loud to Him, praise Him with all your might.. Even this is written in the Bible. And also, the sacrament of reconciliation that makes your life filled of joy for all your sins have been forgiven through it.

Gbu.

Un Déception

You know how frustrated I am with a few people here right now??

You think it's easy to do what I HAVE to do here? You think what I earn is too good to be true?
- Talking to new people is never as easy as you think it is
- Getting closer with them is even harder
- Earning what I earn now is actually not compatible for me

No matter how hard I try to cope with these issues, I am still weak.

J'ai besoin quelqu'un a qui parler.

Disappointment

Please allow me to express my disappointment with some people at my workplace..



Ouchhh, I can't wait to write it all down here, so I'll just write the last moment happened..
Which was just half an hour ago!
Can't believe it!
My work should be finished at 9PM. I know as usual, have to extend for some time, depends on the situation. But tonight, I was really happy that I could go home earlier than usual time. I was asked to distribute the flyers when the event is done and the people are leaving... BUT, by 9.30PM, it wasn't finished, so I thought I could pass it to my colleague and the doorman. So I passed the flyers to the doorman, and he was so nice to help me to give it out to people later on. And so I told my colleague that I am going home and she said okay and she'll help me with the flyers.
So I went downstairs to sign out.
HOWEVER,
on my way there, I got a call, I thought that was from my colleague. And yes it was, but not from the one I thought of. That was from another colleague (who I think gets jealous of me often, ask me why!). So here's the conversation:
Me: Hallo..
A : Where are you Frida?
Me: I am downstairs, on the way to sign out and go home.
A : Huh? Why are you going home? Where are the flyers then?
Me: I passed it to "B"..
A : Why did you give it to him? It's your job as a GRO!!!!
Me: Err, but my work hour has ended... (that is 9.30PM already fyi..)
A : Yea, but why can't you extend for just another half an hour!
Me: (in my heart.. - this is already half past 9..-)
Okay, I'll go back there and do it.

Arghhhhh... Can't you be nicer??!!!! Can't you smile to people? Your smile is so FAKE! I so realise about it! Not only to me, but to the guests as well.
Not my fault if I am better than you.
Don't get me wrong! I am just doing what I am supposed to do,
But excluding the GIVING OUT FLYERS!!!!
A 4-star hotel giving out flyers at the door?
Maybe there are some hotels who do that. But that doesn't look good for me, really.
Especially when it comes to me as a GRO - equivalent to Supervisor, doing that.
And that Supervisor asking me with rudeness?!
When it's within my working hours and you ask me with SMILE, I am really okay with that. But this one.. arghhh. You know that I am new here and you've worked here whole life, then you can treat me like that!
I don't see 'giving out flyers' is part of my SOP/JD anyway.

Thank God, I still can hold on. I wanted to come back and did the thing and SMIle to people, in such situation.

Pardon me if I am kinda rude here.. -Emosi sedang menggebu-gebu- But, I will say goodbye to her anyway and tell her that I have done 'my' job.

Meeting people

Me, with the hotel uniform.

Armand Maulana, one of the famous band members in Indonesia

The nice family that I met in the hotel. The grandpa (on the right), he was born here, in Balikpapan 70 years ago!
Took them out to have some coconuts, but unfortunately, the coconut was out of stock.

They're really very tall! If you look at it carefully, I am already on top of the stone and I am still shorter! Look at them!