What's been happening here??
I feel that I find myself hardly write anything anymore here. :|
Anyway, tomorrow I am leaving for Malang, to see my Grandma and to celebrate her birthday! Thank You Lord for the Grace You've given to her and all of us.
And then on Sunday, I am gonna have the TOEFL test. Olala! I am not nervous yet, but I am sure I will by Saturday! especially that I prepare nothing!
But overall, I am excited for the things to come! ;)
Ah, let me share something that made my day yesterday :)
It's about my work. I finally had the chance to really SPEAK OUT about whatever I feel towards my work. Well, not entirely I SPOKE about all, but things related to the work, I did share, except for the feelings that came along, NOPE. (My so-called manager was there too.)
So I had like 8 points that I shared. I am glad I did it and hopefully, something good will come up soon.
Something that makes me surprised is always whenever I feel really bad about my job and I bring it into prayer, it always turns out to be something I don't expect but for some reason, it's good.
I remember that I wanted to quit this job so bad, and I prayed about it. In the end, I still find myself here working!
As terrible as it seems, my working hours are really bad. I have to work from 1PM to 9PM (officially) but I usually only go home at 9.30pm earliest and 11pm latest everyday. And I only have a day off, plus, I work on WEEKENDs.
I've had to let go my social life and church activities.
When people go back home after work, i am still at work. And when people are on their day off, again, I am still at work.
For the first few months I was working, my family complained so much. But I told them that this is my job and it's part of the consequences, so let me continue this til at least for a period of 6 months. But now, I think it turns to be the other way around, I've always wanted to quit, but my mom keeps on saying, not now, keep holding on while u're trying to look for a new one.
And so here it is now, I've made a choice for my future, to continue my studies to Master. But only by His Grace and Will that I can make it.
Please keep me in your prayer.
Terima Kasih.
Love you all.
God bless.
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Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Thursday, October 21, 2010
C'est la vie
Last Tuesday I had a day off. As usual, I was planning to do everything that I couldn't do during my working days - 6/7 -.
At first I decided to go for gym, but since I woke up (considered) quite late, I decided to just wash the car and count it as another form of exercise. And after that I planned to watch movie(s). I knew I would watch the movie on my own, since everyone else is working, but that doesn't bother me at all since I am used to it already. So I finished washing the car at 11, then I took shower and I went to the cinema for a 12 O'clock Movie which was, Step Up 3D.
I thought the movie was inspiring. I've always wanted to dance, though even until now I've never had the chance to dance. I can't find one here in my hometown. And I remember there was a time when I wanted to go to a dancing studio in Malaysia, just a few meter walking to the studio, I got a very painful accident, hit by a motorbike. So there was it. I thought I've never meant to be a dancer or even to dance.
But this movie, it wasn't just about dancing. I learned how to not give up to the thing that we want to achieve in our lives. And in country like America, chances are quite a lot, unlike Indonesia. Having watching this movie, it pushed me to aim higher and to think positively. Not giving up and keep on asking and praying. I've this feeling that one day I'll fulfill my dream. Not a very clear one at the moment, but it's something much better than my current situation.
Finished with that, I went for lunch by myself, and I went again for another movie, "Eat, Pray and Love", but this time, with my brother.
Honestly, I don't really like the story line of the movie,it wasn't really clear for me, but one thing that I liked was the traveling part. Italy was really interesting. I learned a bit of Italian culture from there (the hands moving and the lifestyle). It's so true when they talked about how Americans are so busy with their work and they concern so much about their appearance, til they don't enjoy life as much as the Italians do. Hmm... In terms of appearance, you can see it clearly how they much they spend their time in the gym working out on their body, though it works for some of them :). But for the working adults, it's just so real that they're really stressed out with their daily work hectic.
Life oh Life..
Anyway, finished with that I went home for a while and moved on to the French class. Man, French is getting more difficult. And I can't find a time to work on it other than in class. fiuhh.. -_-"/..
At first I decided to go for gym, but since I woke up (considered) quite late, I decided to just wash the car and count it as another form of exercise. And after that I planned to watch movie(s). I knew I would watch the movie on my own, since everyone else is working, but that doesn't bother me at all since I am used to it already. So I finished washing the car at 11, then I took shower and I went to the cinema for a 12 O'clock Movie which was, Step Up 3D.
I thought the movie was inspiring. I've always wanted to dance, though even until now I've never had the chance to dance. I can't find one here in my hometown. And I remember there was a time when I wanted to go to a dancing studio in Malaysia, just a few meter walking to the studio, I got a very painful accident, hit by a motorbike. So there was it. I thought I've never meant to be a dancer or even to dance.But this movie, it wasn't just about dancing. I learned how to not give up to the thing that we want to achieve in our lives. And in country like America, chances are quite a lot, unlike Indonesia. Having watching this movie, it pushed me to aim higher and to think positively. Not giving up and keep on asking and praying. I've this feeling that one day I'll fulfill my dream. Not a very clear one at the moment, but it's something much better than my current situation.
Finished with that, I went for lunch by myself, and I went again for another movie, "Eat, Pray and Love", but this time, with my brother.
Honestly, I don't really like the story line of the movie,it wasn't really clear for me, but one thing that I liked was the traveling part. Italy was really interesting. I learned a bit of Italian culture from there (the hands moving and the lifestyle). It's so true when they talked about how Americans are so busy with their work and they concern so much about their appearance, til they don't enjoy life as much as the Italians do. Hmm... In terms of appearance, you can see it clearly how they much they spend their time in the gym working out on their body, though it works for some of them :). But for the working adults, it's just so real that they're really stressed out with their daily work hectic.Life oh Life..
Anyway, finished with that I went home for a while and moved on to the French class. Man, French is getting more difficult. And I can't find a time to work on it other than in class. fiuhh.. -_-"/..
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
The job and the whole thing about it.
Last 2 weeks I was terribly disappointed at my working environment. The people were just hopeless.
At that point of time, I was totally in bad mood, not feeling like working anymore. This is most probably due to the amount of emotions that have amounted to the max capacity. Until I decided to quit this job by end of this month, just asap.
But I prayed again about it.. So happened that that week was a 9-days Novena prayer together with the whole community of 'Bunda Perawan Maria'. Few days before it happened, we started the prayer and I sent to them my intentions as well as to some friends with whom I prayed with.
One of my intentions was for my future, and especially to be able to further my studies..
And this happened.. and when I told to my parents that I was going to quit, my dad gave me some suggestions on a few things that I could do after I quit the job..
(My dad doesn't like the working hours of my job, but he questioned me when I told him that I wanted to quit the job.. )
Anyways, the ideas were so attracting. Yet, as much as I love his idea, I still have my own plan and concern on my financial. I've grown up and worked, obviously if that's possible, I don't want to get a whole financial support from my parents.. But looking at my salary at this point of time, this is not going to work for me..
I was thinking if this is something related to my prayer all this while.. (I've witnessed myself that Novena prayer never fails, btw).
Having finished the 9-days Novena, my friend and I decided to continue the prayer.. I agreed and I continued praying until today, but with a different Novena (Novena Hati Kudus Yesus). After praying about the job, I decided to quit by end of next month..
Nevertheless, it is not my will be done, but Yours be done (Luke 22:42). Until last weekend, things changed. All of the sudden, I felt like I should stay here longer..
1. It's not good for my CV
2. The people could actually be nice. They perhaps are just 'like that' (if you know what I mean) - politics at work.
3. I am weak when it comes to music! We're having this singing performance and I joined them once, and honestly I enjoyed it. I do enjoy singing anyway. haha.. Can't wait for Christmas carolling though. Lol.
However, if there's a better choice, I'd still go for it. =D
God can really make your day perfect, as perfect as your downs turned to be your Ups!
God bless.
At that point of time, I was totally in bad mood, not feeling like working anymore. This is most probably due to the amount of emotions that have amounted to the max capacity. Until I decided to quit this job by end of this month, just asap.
But I prayed again about it.. So happened that that week was a 9-days Novena prayer together with the whole community of 'Bunda Perawan Maria'. Few days before it happened, we started the prayer and I sent to them my intentions as well as to some friends with whom I prayed with.
One of my intentions was for my future, and especially to be able to further my studies..
And this happened.. and when I told to my parents that I was going to quit, my dad gave me some suggestions on a few things that I could do after I quit the job..
(My dad doesn't like the working hours of my job, but he questioned me when I told him that I wanted to quit the job.. )
Anyways, the ideas were so attracting. Yet, as much as I love his idea, I still have my own plan and concern on my financial. I've grown up and worked, obviously if that's possible, I don't want to get a whole financial support from my parents.. But looking at my salary at this point of time, this is not going to work for me..
I was thinking if this is something related to my prayer all this while.. (I've witnessed myself that Novena prayer never fails, btw).
Having finished the 9-days Novena, my friend and I decided to continue the prayer.. I agreed and I continued praying until today, but with a different Novena (Novena Hati Kudus Yesus). After praying about the job, I decided to quit by end of next month..
Nevertheless, it is not my will be done, but Yours be done (Luke 22:42). Until last weekend, things changed. All of the sudden, I felt like I should stay here longer..
1. It's not good for my CV
2. The people could actually be nice. They perhaps are just 'like that' (if you know what I mean) - politics at work.
3. I am weak when it comes to music! We're having this singing performance and I joined them once, and honestly I enjoyed it. I do enjoy singing anyway. haha.. Can't wait for Christmas carolling though. Lol.
However, if there's a better choice, I'd still go for it. =D
God can really make your day perfect, as perfect as your downs turned to be your Ups!
God bless.
Monday, July 19, 2010
Studying in Europe
I was applying for a scholarship in one of the universities in Italy, yes Italy.
(though I prefer France better, but anywhere in Europe will do! :))
I went through the phone interview as the last step last Friday.
And today I received the news.
It has both good and bad news.
The good news is that I am eligible for the scholarship.
The bad news is that it's only amounted 20% of the tuition fee.
Euro 18,000 - 20%, this means it only saves me Euro 3,600. And I still have 14,400 to pay for, excluding the living cost etc...
I am not meant to study again.. :(
(though I prefer France better, but anywhere in Europe will do! :))
I went through the phone interview as the last step last Friday.
And today I received the news.
It has both good and bad news.
The good news is that I am eligible for the scholarship.
The bad news is that it's only amounted 20% of the tuition fee.
Euro 18,000 - 20%, this means it only saves me Euro 3,600. And I still have 14,400 to pay for, excluding the living cost etc...
I am not meant to study again.. :(
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Un Déception
You know how frustrated I am with a few people here right now??
You think it's easy to do what I HAVE to do here? You think what I earn is too good to be true?
- Talking to new people is never as easy as you think it is
- Getting closer with them is even harder
- Earning what I earn now is actually not compatible for me
No matter how hard I try to cope with these issues, I am still weak.
J'ai besoin quelqu'un a qui parler.
You think it's easy to do what I HAVE to do here? You think what I earn is too good to be true?
- Talking to new people is never as easy as you think it is
- Getting closer with them is even harder
- Earning what I earn now is actually not compatible for me
No matter how hard I try to cope with these issues, I am still weak.
J'ai besoin quelqu'un a qui parler.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Disappointment
Please allow me to express my disappointment with some people at my workplace..
Ouchhh, I can't wait to write it all down here, so I'll just write the last moment happened..
Which was just half an hour ago!
Can't believe it!
My work should be finished at 9PM. I know as usual, have to extend for some time, depends on the situation. But tonight, I was really happy that I could go home earlier than usual time. I was asked to distribute the flyers when the event is done and the people are leaving... BUT, by 9.30PM, it wasn't finished, so I thought I could pass it to my colleague and the doorman. So I passed the flyers to the doorman, and he was so nice to help me to give it out to people later on. And so I told my colleague that I am going home and she said okay and she'll help me with the flyers.
So I went downstairs to sign out.
HOWEVER,
on my way there, I got a call, I thought that was from my colleague. And yes it was, but not from the one I thought of. That was from another colleague (who I think gets jealous of me often, ask me why!). So here's the conversation:
Me: Hallo..
A : Where are you Frida?
Me: I am downstairs, on the way to sign out and go home.
A : Huh? Why are you going home? Where are the flyers then?
Me: I passed it to "B"..
A : Why did you give it to him? It's your job as a GRO!!!!
Me: Err, but my work hour has ended... (that is 9.30PM already fyi..)
A : Yea, but why can't you extend for just another half an hour!
Me: (in my heart.. - this is already half past 9..-)
Okay, I'll go back there and do it.
Arghhhhh... Can't you be nicer??!!!! Can't you smile to people? Your smile is so FAKE! I so realise about it! Not only to me, but to the guests as well.
Not my fault if I am better than you.
Don't get me wrong! I am just doing what I am supposed to do,
But excluding the GIVING OUT FLYERS!!!!
A 4-star hotel giving out flyers at the door?
Maybe there are some hotels who do that. But that doesn't look good for me, really.
Especially when it comes to me as a GRO - equivalent to Supervisor, doing that.
And that Supervisor asking me with rudeness?!
When it's within my working hours and you ask me with SMILE, I am really okay with that. But this one.. arghhh. You know that I am new here and you've worked here whole life, then you can treat me like that!
I don't see 'giving out flyers' is part of my SOP/JD anyway.
Thank God, I still can hold on. I wanted to come back and did the thing and SMIle to people, in such situation.
Pardon me if I am kinda rude here.. -Emosi sedang menggebu-gebu- But, I will say goodbye to her anyway and tell her that I have done 'my' job.
Ouchhh, I can't wait to write it all down here, so I'll just write the last moment happened..
Which was just half an hour ago!
Can't believe it!
My work should be finished at 9PM. I know as usual, have to extend for some time, depends on the situation. But tonight, I was really happy that I could go home earlier than usual time. I was asked to distribute the flyers when the event is done and the people are leaving... BUT, by 9.30PM, it wasn't finished, so I thought I could pass it to my colleague and the doorman. So I passed the flyers to the doorman, and he was so nice to help me to give it out to people later on. And so I told my colleague that I am going home and she said okay and she'll help me with the flyers.
So I went downstairs to sign out.
HOWEVER,
on my way there, I got a call, I thought that was from my colleague. And yes it was, but not from the one I thought of. That was from another colleague (who I think gets jealous of me often, ask me why!). So here's the conversation:
Me: Hallo..
A : Where are you Frida?
Me: I am downstairs, on the way to sign out and go home.
A : Huh? Why are you going home? Where are the flyers then?
Me: I passed it to "B"..
A : Why did you give it to him? It's your job as a GRO!!!!
Me: Err, but my work hour has ended... (that is 9.30PM already fyi..)
A : Yea, but why can't you extend for just another half an hour!
Me: (in my heart.. - this is already half past 9..-)
Okay, I'll go back there and do it.
Arghhhhh... Can't you be nicer??!!!! Can't you smile to people? Your smile is so FAKE! I so realise about it! Not only to me, but to the guests as well.
Not my fault if I am better than you.
Don't get me wrong! I am just doing what I am supposed to do,
But excluding the GIVING OUT FLYERS!!!!
A 4-star hotel giving out flyers at the door?
Maybe there are some hotels who do that. But that doesn't look good for me, really.
Especially when it comes to me as a GRO - equivalent to Supervisor, doing that.
And that Supervisor asking me with rudeness?!
When it's within my working hours and you ask me with SMILE, I am really okay with that. But this one.. arghhh. You know that I am new here and you've worked here whole life, then you can treat me like that!
I don't see 'giving out flyers' is part of my SOP/JD anyway.
Thank God, I still can hold on. I wanted to come back and did the thing and SMIle to people, in such situation.
Pardon me if I am kinda rude here.. -Emosi sedang menggebu-gebu- But, I will say goodbye to her anyway and tell her that I have done 'my' job.
Friday, March 12, 2010
2 Weeks working
It's already been 2 weeks since I started my new job.
It is indeed an interesting job as a Guest Relation Officer (GRO). I get to meet people, talk to them, etc. I also get to go around in the hotel to check out if everything is alright (See if the guests are happy enough and no complaints and stuff). However, my working hour isn't that good. It starts from 12PM - 8 PM. Although I get to wake up late, but I have no life outside work, cos when I leave my house, it is 11AM, when a lot of thing starts happening and working in hotel doesn't mean 8PM straight you can leave. I usually can only leave at 9PM. So you see, 9PM, here in this quiet city, who's still alive and going out? :p No such thing as Yamcha here. What exist is late dinner or movie maybe.
I got one day off/week. This week I changed my off-day to Saturday cos I am having 'La Petangue' competition with my Classmates from Alliance Francaise. So gotta wake up early tomorrow. But I am happy to get a chance to miggle around with some french people and practise my french. Next week having an exam. OMG! Totally not prepared for that cos I am stuck with work.
Other things about my workplace.. I guess just like any companies, when you just join, you'll be very new to it and you might get some 'special' treatments from your colleagues.. But I am thankful that not many of them do that to me. Just a few, which happens to be my co-worker. People get jealous of who you are and what you have.. biasa itu.. I am trying my best to still be calm and treat them nice. I don't wanna have negative thoughts on them. Hopefully this Love will continuosly fill my heart..
I'd like to thank my friends who have supported me and told me things that usually happen when working in hotel. So now when I am really doing it, I am not surprised, yet I feel I am already well prepared. :)
Thank God for always being there for me and not letting me go.
I am blessed. ^^, and so are YOU!
It is indeed an interesting job as a Guest Relation Officer (GRO). I get to meet people, talk to them, etc. I also get to go around in the hotel to check out if everything is alright (See if the guests are happy enough and no complaints and stuff). However, my working hour isn't that good. It starts from 12PM - 8 PM. Although I get to wake up late, but I have no life outside work, cos when I leave my house, it is 11AM, when a lot of thing starts happening and working in hotel doesn't mean 8PM straight you can leave. I usually can only leave at 9PM. So you see, 9PM, here in this quiet city, who's still alive and going out? :p No such thing as Yamcha here. What exist is late dinner or movie maybe.
I got one day off/week. This week I changed my off-day to Saturday cos I am having 'La Petangue' competition with my Classmates from Alliance Francaise. So gotta wake up early tomorrow. But I am happy to get a chance to miggle around with some french people and practise my french. Next week having an exam. OMG! Totally not prepared for that cos I am stuck with work.
Other things about my workplace.. I guess just like any companies, when you just join, you'll be very new to it and you might get some 'special' treatments from your colleagues.. But I am thankful that not many of them do that to me. Just a few, which happens to be my co-worker. People get jealous of who you are and what you have.. biasa itu.. I am trying my best to still be calm and treat them nice. I don't wanna have negative thoughts on them. Hopefully this Love will continuosly fill my heart..
I'd like to thank my friends who have supported me and told me things that usually happen when working in hotel. So now when I am really doing it, I am not surprised, yet I feel I am already well prepared. :)
Thank God for always being there for me and not letting me go.
I am blessed. ^^, and so are YOU!
Monday, February 8, 2010
my God-mother
Last night I dreamed about my Godmother. It's been a few year since we last talked/met. In fact, there was a misunderstanding/issue going on between us. But honestly, I have a very little idea of what made it so.. we had not really talked since then..
In my dream, I put all efforts to talk to her and unexpectedly, she said that she thought I was the one making a gap between us and she was afraid to come to me and talk. -_-". After that, I was so relieved that nothing actually made her angry or whatsoever to me..
But in fact, I still think there was something that made her disappointed with me and therefore, she MADE that gap... And I am too afraid to start asking about it..
Deeply in my heart, I miss her.. even more, she's my God-mother, although she's a year younger than me..
Just wish her all the best and I pray that she may walk faithfully in God throughout her life journey..
In my dream, I put all efforts to talk to her and unexpectedly, she said that she thought I was the one making a gap between us and she was afraid to come to me and talk. -_-". After that, I was so relieved that nothing actually made her angry or whatsoever to me..
But in fact, I still think there was something that made her disappointed with me and therefore, she MADE that gap... And I am too afraid to start asking about it..
Deeply in my heart, I miss her.. even more, she's my God-mother, although she's a year younger than me..
Just wish her all the best and I pray that she may walk faithfully in God throughout her life journey..
Saturday, November 14, 2009
I got a job!
Praise God! Alleluia!
Friends! Thanks a lot for your prayers all the while. I am finally getting to work for real soon!
As I posted before that I was going through interview and test. Yesterday, the company [Batavia Air] called me and confirmed my eligibility to work with them. Although the salary is comparatively low, but I take this as my first experience. (much better than me being jobless).
I still can't stop thanking God and mostly Mother Mary. Friends, tell ya, Novena really works! No matter how bad/difficult your situation is, always pray! and I recommend you to pray Novena. Mother Mary does listen to every prayer we ask her to intercede for us. Such an amazing Mother, isn't she? :) Why am I so sure about that? Cos this isn't the first time my prayer through Novena is answered. I believe it, do you? ^^
I was praying what should I be doing and where, to God, cos I know, no matter how I plan it, only His will that will happen. I was also praying if I could go to France with some scholarship, or if I could get accepted in VOA to work in the US for some time. But now I think He wants me to stay, and so I will. But more than that, of course, I still have long term plans after. Keep on praying ^^.
Oiala, I feel much relieved now, I will have some income to save for 2011 Plan :)
I hope to see some of you in Madrid 2011! hehe.. If I do go there :)
That's all for now.
Take care all!
God bless!
Friends! Thanks a lot for your prayers all the while. I am finally getting to work for real soon!
As I posted before that I was going through interview and test. Yesterday, the company [Batavia Air] called me and confirmed my eligibility to work with them. Although the salary is comparatively low, but I take this as my first experience. (much better than me being jobless).
I still can't stop thanking God and mostly Mother Mary. Friends, tell ya, Novena really works! No matter how bad/difficult your situation is, always pray! and I recommend you to pray Novena. Mother Mary does listen to every prayer we ask her to intercede for us. Such an amazing Mother, isn't she? :) Why am I so sure about that? Cos this isn't the first time my prayer through Novena is answered. I believe it, do you? ^^
I was praying what should I be doing and where, to God, cos I know, no matter how I plan it, only His will that will happen. I was also praying if I could go to France with some scholarship, or if I could get accepted in VOA to work in the US for some time. But now I think He wants me to stay, and so I will. But more than that, of course, I still have long term plans after. Keep on praying ^^.
Oiala, I feel much relieved now, I will have some income to save for 2011 Plan :)
I hope to see some of you in Madrid 2011! hehe.. If I do go there :)
That's all for now.
Take care all!
God bless!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Weak week which turned out Great in the end
Last week I was having fever and flu. Fever for like 3 days and flu till now - about a week already. I guess it is partly because I've been forcing myself so much during my vacation to Taiwan and Malaysia. I walked so much since morning til night, under the HOT sun in the afternoon. Man, that was really exhausting somehow.. So anyway, I basically didn't 'move around' so much last week, just stayed at home. But still Praise God, despite of that, I managed to go for French Exam, which was super late cos it was supposed to be done in the middle of September and now it's like mid of October. O well, anyways, I passed the exam! Praise God! Although I knew that I didn't do my best during the exam as I was sick and mostly because I forgot how to speak French! I sounded really weird when I spoke French that day. Guess the teacher already knows my capability, so at least she didn't mark me low.. :p
Besides, I helped out (though in a very low %) my brother doing the wedding Invitation of our cousin. Yes, we did it all manually, except the printing. We bought the papers on our own and stick it together etc, all on our own :) They're about 280 invitations to make ^^. Unfortunately, my cousins (who are supposed to help out as it's their sis' wedding) are kinda busy with their stuff, too), so most of the time my brother does it himself.
The week ended nicely with me joining the Legion of Mary team to pray in 'Goa Maria' in KM45. Although not many youths there, but thank God I still have one friend around my age coming along, so at least I wasn't that lonely. :P
Here are some pictures on that...
The Front door of the Church..
This is what's on the floor..
Inside the church, it looks more like the church in Kuching.. It has the North, South, East and West..
Gua Maria...
Moreover, I get to know Mother Mary better now after joining the Legion of Mary. Mary is indeed really special. and I get to know more people in the church, too. Praise be to God! ^^ I have some friends now. :P
Ohyea, it's been some time that I seldom post pictures.. hehe Anyway, here's my first and new real guitar! I finally got myself a new guitar on my bday. YAMAHA C40. It's not something special for a Professional Guitarist though, but it's really nice for people like me, Beginner ^^,
Additional.. I made Fish and Chips on last Sunday :)
Besides, I helped out (though in a very low %) my brother doing the wedding Invitation of our cousin. Yes, we did it all manually, except the printing. We bought the papers on our own and stick it together etc, all on our own :) They're about 280 invitations to make ^^. Unfortunately, my cousins (who are supposed to help out as it's their sis' wedding) are kinda busy with their stuff, too), so most of the time my brother does it himself.
The week ended nicely with me joining the Legion of Mary team to pray in 'Goa Maria' in KM45. Although not many youths there, but thank God I still have one friend around my age coming along, so at least I wasn't that lonely. :P
Here are some pictures on that...
The Front door of the Church..
This is what's on the floor..
Inside the church, it looks more like the church in Kuching.. It has the North, South, East and West..
Gua Maria...
Moreover, I get to know Mother Mary better now after joining the Legion of Mary. Mary is indeed really special. and I get to know more people in the church, too. Praise be to God! ^^ I have some friends now. :POhyea, it's been some time that I seldom post pictures.. hehe Anyway, here's my first and new real guitar! I finally got myself a new guitar on my bday. YAMAHA C40. It's not something special for a Professional Guitarist though, but it's really nice for people like me, Beginner ^^,
Additional.. I made Fish and Chips on last Sunday :)Take care d'amis!
God bless!
Sunday, August 16, 2009
How it feels to be lonely..
Could I share some of my deep personal feeling here?
Emo attack's on. Well,to be honest, yes, i've just watched Korean drama- thought to always be touching drama most of the time..
I am somehow feeling a lil lonely here. Although I have family around, it's still different if I were with my friends around.
It's as weird as how it may seem.. When I was surrounded by friends, I wanted to be with family, but when I am with fam, I want to be with friends some time. Well, that's a Human Nature, I guess. Always want to belong to others..
There are things which I don't feel to share with my mom, or my dad, even my brother. Whereas, when I am with my friends, I could just talk abt things, what I am feeling right now, my thoughts, my dreams, etc.. Have you ever felt the same?
This makes me miss my friends, everyone whom I used to close with, or just anyone I knew before..
I could say that I have no friends around here. There are act. one or two.. Still, it's diff. The connection is just not there.. One I think is because we have been living in a different environment, so it takes time for us to sew back a hole that was existed.. And another one, we do close but I don't know why everytime we talk, it tends to end up me being the listener. However, i do enjoy listening to her stories and i know i can share stories to her, too. But somehow the words just do not come out. There's something that makes me not to share with her..
And now i guess i will still end up living in my hometown. Not that i don't like it, i just don't feel like doing so. But far more than that, I still in my believe that God has prepared something great for me in the future. :-)
Anyways, I just miss my friends and I need someone to talk to sometimes. Again, Human Nature.. ^^
Emo attack's on. Well,to be honest, yes, i've just watched Korean drama- thought to always be touching drama most of the time..
I am somehow feeling a lil lonely here. Although I have family around, it's still different if I were with my friends around.
It's as weird as how it may seem.. When I was surrounded by friends, I wanted to be with family, but when I am with fam, I want to be with friends some time. Well, that's a Human Nature, I guess. Always want to belong to others..
There are things which I don't feel to share with my mom, or my dad, even my brother. Whereas, when I am with my friends, I could just talk abt things, what I am feeling right now, my thoughts, my dreams, etc.. Have you ever felt the same?
This makes me miss my friends, everyone whom I used to close with, or just anyone I knew before..
I could say that I have no friends around here. There are act. one or two.. Still, it's diff. The connection is just not there.. One I think is because we have been living in a different environment, so it takes time for us to sew back a hole that was existed.. And another one, we do close but I don't know why everytime we talk, it tends to end up me being the listener. However, i do enjoy listening to her stories and i know i can share stories to her, too. But somehow the words just do not come out. There's something that makes me not to share with her..
And now i guess i will still end up living in my hometown. Not that i don't like it, i just don't feel like doing so. But far more than that, I still in my believe that God has prepared something great for me in the future. :-)
Anyways, I just miss my friends and I need someone to talk to sometimes. Again, Human Nature.. ^^
Monday, July 13, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
3rd week back home
Yeap, I seldom blog recently. This is, first, because of the Internet problem..
The internet connection at home is super slow and therefore, I could only be able to go online when I am in my dad's store [no more midnight online. =P]
I don't have that high-technology mobile phone called BB-Blackberry, which a lot of people nowadays are having [in Indonesia especially], where you can go online anywhere and anytime. Not thinking of getting one, too. =D
The announcement is already out and I am not accepted in the University which I applied to. Sad to know, but thank God I am not falling into that horrible moments like some people are experiencing when they're not accepted into the University that they want to go to. I told myself even before the announcement, during the waiting period of time, that whatever the result would be, that's the Best that God has for me. He has something good coming up for me.. ^^ And yea, this is it. I am still not sure about my future plannings. I am waiting for His direction..
Balikpapan fortunately is not as boring as what it seems, I do have fun here. =D
And yesterday, my parents and I, after we went for a Sunday mass at night, we went to Cinema! First time after more that 10years, my family and I go for a movie! =D I was so happy. We watched Terminator. Being an ordinary girl, Christian Bale and Sam Worthington are incredibly handsome! They look alike, too, for some reason. :p Love them!
Today my friends and I (yea, I finally have met some friends here, hehe), we went for Karaoke. After 6 months being unable to go to a KTV in Taiwan due to $$ reason. Today, I made it! =D
This Wednesday I am flying to Surabaya-Malang, visiting my grandma, and some friends, too hopefully. ^^ So then, I may not be able to go online for some time.
Til the next post, take care guys.
God bless!
*I wish I could practise more on guitar, vocal, and piano!! [ it sounds too much, doesn't it..? ]*
The internet connection at home is super slow and therefore, I could only be able to go online when I am in my dad's store [no more midnight online. =P]
I don't have that high-technology mobile phone called BB-Blackberry, which a lot of people nowadays are having [in Indonesia especially], where you can go online anywhere and anytime. Not thinking of getting one, too. =D
The announcement is already out and I am not accepted in the University which I applied to. Sad to know, but thank God I am not falling into that horrible moments like some people are experiencing when they're not accepted into the University that they want to go to. I told myself even before the announcement, during the waiting period of time, that whatever the result would be, that's the Best that God has for me. He has something good coming up for me.. ^^ And yea, this is it. I am still not sure about my future plannings. I am waiting for His direction..
Balikpapan fortunately is not as boring as what it seems, I do have fun here. =D
And yesterday, my parents and I, after we went for a Sunday mass at night, we went to Cinema! First time after more that 10years, my family and I go for a movie! =D I was so happy. We watched Terminator. Being an ordinary girl, Christian Bale and Sam Worthington are incredibly handsome! They look alike, too, for some reason. :p Love them!
Today my friends and I (yea, I finally have met some friends here, hehe), we went for Karaoke. After 6 months being unable to go to a KTV in Taiwan due to $$ reason. Today, I made it! =D
This Wednesday I am flying to Surabaya-Malang, visiting my grandma, and some friends, too hopefully. ^^ So then, I may not be able to go online for some time.
Til the next post, take care guys.
God bless!
*I wish I could practise more on guitar, vocal, and piano!! [ it sounds too much, doesn't it..? ]*
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Oh la la! [Say it in French accent! - U la la!]
Half of my day today was really gray [aka. Kelabu]..
.. I was not done with the teaching plan. There was one book I forgot to take home and thus, I couldn't prepare the materials for one of the classes.. Was stressed out and decided to go to Olive [place where I work in] to take the book and to prepare. BUT, it was not open at that time, so I had to come back to Fu da with nothing. At first, I thought of going home first (it was 11AM by the way) to take a very short-nap. Better than nothing, since my both physical and mind were not in a good mood. A short nap because at 12PM there was a Rehearsal for next week's performance.
But when the bus stopped at Fu da, I don't know why I stood up and got out of the bus. I think I felt fresher at that very moment after a few minutes of sleeping in the bus. Cool huh?! =P So, I decided to get myself a coffee (something which I prefer not to take - only during Emergency cases). I went to Easy Way with the thought of ordering the drink from an English menu. Yet, in fact there wasn't any, so instead, I ordered Green Tea as usual. "Buy safe". It works! It made me feel much better. And I went to the Computer Lab to do another lesson plan.
At 12 noon, I left the Lab for the Rehearsal. This time, I was still nervous and so much stressed within.. I prayed and prayed, asked God to give me the peace that I need. [There were 2 performances for me to rehearse]. But this wasn't so much of the reasons for my worries. It was more about the Lesson Plan that I had not finished..
But Praise God, Rehearsal went pretty well, although it wasn't something I expected, but it was alright.
At about 3++ PM we finished and left. I went to have my 'quick-late lunch'. I had 2 dumplings, a bao, and a Soya Milk (was it a lot, you think? =P).
Then went to print the teaching materials and après ça, I met a friend of mine who indeed contributed in making my day less stressful today. Thanks for that! Though you may not realise about it =)
At 3.45PM I reached the Teaching Centre and did the part that I had not done.
To make it short (I am really sleepy right now and kinda exhausted for the past few weeks, well, after the weekend, it should now be "For the Past Few Days"), I thank God for making everything went well. Day by day I learn to trust in Him more and more, for He is know what is best for me.
Bonne nuit!
God bless!
.. I was not done with the teaching plan. There was one book I forgot to take home and thus, I couldn't prepare the materials for one of the classes.. Was stressed out and decided to go to Olive [place where I work in] to take the book and to prepare. BUT, it was not open at that time, so I had to come back to Fu da with nothing. At first, I thought of going home first (it was 11AM by the way) to take a very short-nap. Better than nothing, since my both physical and mind were not in a good mood. A short nap because at 12PM there was a Rehearsal for next week's performance.
But when the bus stopped at Fu da, I don't know why I stood up and got out of the bus. I think I felt fresher at that very moment after a few minutes of sleeping in the bus. Cool huh?! =P So, I decided to get myself a coffee (something which I prefer not to take - only during Emergency cases). I went to Easy Way with the thought of ordering the drink from an English menu. Yet, in fact there wasn't any, so instead, I ordered Green Tea as usual. "Buy safe". It works! It made me feel much better. And I went to the Computer Lab to do another lesson plan.
At 12 noon, I left the Lab for the Rehearsal. This time, I was still nervous and so much stressed within.. I prayed and prayed, asked God to give me the peace that I need. [There were 2 performances for me to rehearse]. But this wasn't so much of the reasons for my worries. It was more about the Lesson Plan that I had not finished..
But Praise God, Rehearsal went pretty well, although it wasn't something I expected, but it was alright.
At about 3++ PM we finished and left. I went to have my 'quick-late lunch'. I had 2 dumplings, a bao, and a Soya Milk (was it a lot, you think? =P).
Then went to print the teaching materials and après ça, I met a friend of mine who indeed contributed in making my day less stressful today. Thanks for that! Though you may not realise about it =)
At 3.45PM I reached the Teaching Centre and did the part that I had not done.
To make it short (I am really sleepy right now and kinda exhausted for the past few weeks, well, after the weekend, it should now be "For the Past Few Days"), I thank God for making everything went well. Day by day I learn to trust in Him more and more, for He is know what is best for me.
"Thank You Lord for bringing those beautiful faces to make my day brighter. ^^,"
Bonne nuit!
God bless!
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