How it feels to be lonely..

Could I share some of my deep personal feeling here?

Emo attack's on. Well,to be honest, yes, i've just watched Korean drama- thought to always be touching drama most of the time..
I am somehow feeling a lil lonely here. Although I have family around, it's still different if I were with my friends around.
It's as weird as how it may seem.. When I was surrounded by friends, I wanted to be with family, but when I am with fam, I want to be with friends some time. Well, that's a Human Nature, I guess. Always want to belong to others..

There are things which I don't feel to share with my mom, or my dad, even my brother. Whereas, when I am with my friends, I could just talk abt things, what I am feeling right now, my thoughts, my dreams, etc.. Have you ever felt the same?

This makes me miss my friends, everyone whom I used to close with, or just anyone I knew before..

I could say that I have no friends around here. There are act. one or two.. Still, it's diff. The connection is just not there.. One I think is because we have been living in a different environment, so it takes time for us to sew back a hole that was existed.. And another one, we do close but I don't know why everytime we talk, it tends to end up me being the listener. However, i do enjoy listening to her stories and i know i can share stories to her, too. But somehow the words just do not come out. There's something that makes me not to share with her..
And now i guess i will still end up living in my hometown. Not that i don't like it, i just don't feel like doing so. But far more than that, I still in my believe that God has prepared something great for me in the future. :-)

Anyways, I just miss my friends and I need someone to talk to sometimes. Again, Human Nature.. ^^