Studying in Europe

I was applying for a scholarship in one of the universities in Italy, yes Italy.
(though I prefer France better, but anywhere in Europe will do! :))

I went through the phone interview as the last step last Friday.
And today I received the news.
It has both good and bad news.
The good news is that I am eligible for the scholarship.
The bad news is that it's only amounted 20% of the tuition fee.
Euro 18,000 - 20%, this means it only saves me Euro 3,600. And I still have 14,400 to pay for, excluding the living cost etc...

I am not meant to study again.. :(

40 years in Priesthood

Today marks the celebration of 40 years Father Sinnema serves as a Pastor. In addition to memorize the feeling and memory that he felt 40 years ago, he requested the Church choir to sing some Latin songs.. Agnus Dei etc..

Wow man, I cried during the mass. And this reassures me that my Faith is more than anything one can imagine. The Holy mass, especially with Latin version is really a Grandeur mass. It is so splendid and the echo of the liturgical music with the choir simply completes the whole mass process.

I could feel what Pastor felt 40 years ago..

Some people often say that they're not growing in the Catholic church, or even the Catholic is boring, the mass that is monotone etc.. But if you actually feel what I have felt all these 4 years, Catholic is simply awesome! From it's origin, history, traditions, and experience, this totally made up the reason of being a Catholic itself.
Who says Catholic is just being quiet during the mass, follow the order of the mass, and you receive the communion, NO. It is more than that, you want to praise and worship God, you go for it. Lift up your hands to the Lord, sing out loud to Him, praise Him with all your might.. Even this is written in the Bible. And also, the sacrament of reconciliation that makes your life filled of joy for all your sins have been forgiven through it.

Gbu.

Un Déception

You know how frustrated I am with a few people here right now??

You think it's easy to do what I HAVE to do here? You think what I earn is too good to be true?
- Talking to new people is never as easy as you think it is
- Getting closer with them is even harder
- Earning what I earn now is actually not compatible for me

No matter how hard I try to cope with these issues, I am still weak.

J'ai besoin quelqu'un a qui parler.

Disappointment

Please allow me to express my disappointment with some people at my workplace..



Ouchhh, I can't wait to write it all down here, so I'll just write the last moment happened..
Which was just half an hour ago!
Can't believe it!
My work should be finished at 9PM. I know as usual, have to extend for some time, depends on the situation. But tonight, I was really happy that I could go home earlier than usual time. I was asked to distribute the flyers when the event is done and the people are leaving... BUT, by 9.30PM, it wasn't finished, so I thought I could pass it to my colleague and the doorman. So I passed the flyers to the doorman, and he was so nice to help me to give it out to people later on. And so I told my colleague that I am going home and she said okay and she'll help me with the flyers.
So I went downstairs to sign out.
HOWEVER,
on my way there, I got a call, I thought that was from my colleague. And yes it was, but not from the one I thought of. That was from another colleague (who I think gets jealous of me often, ask me why!). So here's the conversation:
Me: Hallo..
A : Where are you Frida?
Me: I am downstairs, on the way to sign out and go home.
A : Huh? Why are you going home? Where are the flyers then?
Me: I passed it to "B"..
A : Why did you give it to him? It's your job as a GRO!!!!
Me: Err, but my work hour has ended... (that is 9.30PM already fyi..)
A : Yea, but why can't you extend for just another half an hour!
Me: (in my heart.. - this is already half past 9..-)
Okay, I'll go back there and do it.

Arghhhhh... Can't you be nicer??!!!! Can't you smile to people? Your smile is so FAKE! I so realise about it! Not only to me, but to the guests as well.
Not my fault if I am better than you.
Don't get me wrong! I am just doing what I am supposed to do,
But excluding the GIVING OUT FLYERS!!!!
A 4-star hotel giving out flyers at the door?
Maybe there are some hotels who do that. But that doesn't look good for me, really.
Especially when it comes to me as a GRO - equivalent to Supervisor, doing that.
And that Supervisor asking me with rudeness?!
When it's within my working hours and you ask me with SMILE, I am really okay with that. But this one.. arghhh. You know that I am new here and you've worked here whole life, then you can treat me like that!
I don't see 'giving out flyers' is part of my SOP/JD anyway.

Thank God, I still can hold on. I wanted to come back and did the thing and SMIle to people, in such situation.

Pardon me if I am kinda rude here.. -Emosi sedang menggebu-gebu- But, I will say goodbye to her anyway and tell her that I have done 'my' job.

Meeting people

Me, with the hotel uniform.

Armand Maulana, one of the famous band members in Indonesia

The nice family that I met in the hotel. The grandpa (on the right), he was born here, in Balikpapan 70 years ago!
Took them out to have some coconuts, but unfortunately, the coconut was out of stock.

They're really very tall! If you look at it carefully, I am already on top of the stone and I am still shorter! Look at them!

Life is unpredictable

Last Saturday I heard a sad news about my parents' friends' daughter.. She got into a motorbike accident and passed away right after.. She was only 22 years old and she was the hope of her family..
This awakes me that life doesn't guarantee anything.
Whatever you have on earth, will be left on earth..
Life is unpredictable,
So do whatever we can to get a ticket to heaven :)

Everything happens for a purpose.

Yesterday was my first time attending a Christian fellowship with my colleague here in the hotel. It's wonderful to know that they're having a fellowship meeting every Thursday of the week. The Praise and Worship was good, the sharing from the pastor was good, too.
I was glad that God invited me there, to join them and to just feel how it feels to join a Praise and Worship, to spend time with Him. (p.s: Lifeline, I miss it so much!!!)
I lifted up thing that has bothered me lately, and I felt better after being prayed over.

And today, I attended a (free) seminar in the hotel titled: "Fully motivated at work".
The speaker was Louis Sastrawijoyo.
Some points of the seminar are:
- A change has to be started from ourselves.
- Don't say you're not happy if you haven't done this...
You as another party, look at yourselves, think about 3 things that you see at yourselves as the reasons why yourselves should be happy/thankful for
- BIG THINKING, BIG SUCCESS
- There are 3 points to achieve a dream:
1. Dream itself
2. Plans (at least 3)
3. Critics (against the plans).
Critics always make you unmotivated towards your dream, therefore, you gotta plan more until the critics become 0 in the end.. Don't loose hope because of those critics.
- A success depends on your faith.
Even faith has 2 types: faith as a power to build and faith as a power to ruin. Take the first one.
- PRAY, as the most of all. Because when you pray, you keep your dream in mind and that becomes your mindset.
- 6 Human Basic Needs:
1. Certainty
2. Change
3. Feel needed
4. Good relationship
5. Growth
6. To contribute

And just now, I was blessed to enjoy some food at one of the restaurants in the hotel. I was invited to join C' Dewi for dinner. Had some sharing on Christianity with her.

And now, I am going home soon, will get a small cake for my brother who's celebrating his birthday tomorrow ^^.

Til the next post, take care all.
God bless.

Le Petit Bal Perdu

"The small ball that's lost"
This is a direct translation of the Theme during the Party with some French last March 20th. Not sure why it was named so though.. Then we were supposed to dress up a la 50's.. But not many did that.. well..
We were invited by our French teacher to go and have fun! The singers are from France. They were purposely invited here for some musical activities.

A week after they also came to the hotel where I work at. So excited seeing them again! hehe..

Anyways, let the pictures do the talking.. =D

Me and Samira (Malaysian)

Next to Samira, it's Janin, our teacher

Just pretending, no worries! hehe

Le garçon is so cute, isn't he?? :)



It was a joyful night though pretty tiring cos we danced too much :p