Weak week which turned out Great in the end

Last week I was having fever and flu. Fever for like 3 days and flu till now - about a week already. I guess it is partly because I've been forcing myself so much during my vacation to Taiwan and Malaysia. I walked so much since morning til night, under the HOT sun in the afternoon. Man, that was really exhausting somehow.. So anyway, I basically didn't 'move around' so much last week, just stayed at home. But still Praise God, despite of that, I managed to go for French Exam, which was super late cos it was supposed to be done in the middle of September and now it's like mid of October. O well, anyways, I passed the exam! Praise God! Although I knew that I didn't do my best during the exam as I was sick and mostly because I forgot how to speak French! I sounded really weird when I spoke French that day. Guess the teacher already knows my capability, so at least she didn't mark me low.. :p

Besides, I helped out (though in a very low %) my brother doing the wedding Invitation of our cousin. Yes, we did it all manually, except the printing. We bought the papers on our own and stick it together etc, all on our own :) They're about 280 invitations to make ^^. Unfortunately, my cousins (who are supposed to help out as it's their sis' wedding) are kinda busy with their stuff, too), so most of the time my brother does it himself.

The week ended nicely with me joining the Legion of Mary team to pray in 'Goa Maria' in KM45. Although not many youths there, but thank God I still have one friend around my age coming along, so at least I wasn't that lonely. :P
Here are some pictures on that...


The Front door of the Church..This is what's on the floor..Inside the church, it looks more like the church in Kuching.. It has the North, South, East and West..Gua Maria...
Moreover, I get to know Mother Mary better now after joining the Legion of Mary. Mary is indeed really special. and I get to know more people in the church, too. Praise be to God! ^^ I have some friends now. :P

Ohyea, it's been some time that I seldom post pictures.. hehe Anyway, here's my first and new real guitar! I finally got myself a new guitar on my bday. YAMAHA C40. It's not something special for a Professional Guitarist though, but it's really nice for people like me, Beginner ^^,

Additional.. I made Fish and Chips on last Sunday :)

Take care d'amis!

God bless!

Inner Healing Retreat

I attended a Retreat held by SIC - St. Ignatius Church, Malaysia. It was held in Villa Dominic, Genting for 4 Days 3 Nights.
As it was also mentioned by the Speaker, - Jude Antoine that we might not know why we were there, but certainly, God has something planned for each of us.
I totally too, was wondering "Why am I actually here, despite of the many of the uncles and aunties who are in this camp, instead of the young ones.." There were just few of the youths and mostly were from Lifeline. :P Thank God I still had them with me there. haha.

Anyway, things started when Jude brought us into our past memories, even when we were in the womb. It was so much related to Psychology though (as you may wonder why it's called "Inner Healing Retreat").

Moving forwards, it brought me to the things which I never realised before that it was somehow the cause of why is it like this why is it like that in the present (now). I did cry (quite) a lot during the sessions, something that I was also surprised about. I am really sensitive, that I know, that even during P&W songs I sometimes do cry. But this one was just during sessions - talk with a soft background music..- it was basically the healing sessions anyway. =D
From there on, I realised about certain things and I felt I was healed. I keep telling myself not to be tempted again to get angry. Instead, I just take it easy, and let it go..
There were 3 things discussed also,
1. Unforgiveness;
I thought I've forgotten the persons who hurt me and even me who has hurt someone. But still, I cried again.. So I thought that was because the healing was taking place. Before that, Jude also asked us to look for stones, the no. of stones is determined by the no. of people who wronged us.
2. Shame;
Something that's always in my mind since I was a kid, due to the 'word' that's always said to me. As Jude said "Word of mouth has the most powerful effect on a person". I can't agree more with Jude. I hated it whenever they said that to me. But by the God's power and Love, I'll try my best to instead of getting hurt, just TAKE it Easy. Just offer SMiles to them. Let it GO. I love the way I am.
3. Fear
I am afraid of my future, honestly. Although I've heard a lot about the plans that God has for us, but still, if I don't try my best to fulfill His plan, will I ever achieve what is best for me? Not to mention, money is also a concern for me. I haven't done a real job since I graduated last year. Working for a good company also requires so much, that at least, I have a real working experience before, if not, your value is down by 1 point. :(
Nevertheless, I'll always pray for that. You too, for yours, will you? :)

Anyway,
My point of sharing this little thing about the Retreat is for us to discern and have faith in God.
And you know what? So far, I've managed my emotions well ever since I came back from the Retreat. I Let It Go and not tempted to get that useless anger. Praise God! ^^,

"Blessed is anyone who endures temptation. Such a one has stood the test and will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him."
- James 1:12-

Some pictures during the Retreat..

- Group photo -

- Calling Emily (one of the Lifeliners) to wish her Happy Bday -

- Really wanted to play, but I can't.. :( -

- Can you see us there? taken in the early morning during the sunrise -

- Taken while we were looking for the stones ;) -

- Lifeline gank, a group photo before heading back home -

- Bye bye , Au revoir! -

God bless!

Taiwan (pictures)

Here are some of the photos taken during my visit to Taiwan.. This time I didn't take a lot of pictures. I don't know why, but it's just like that. I was also surprised when I checked there are only about 200 photos in my camera.. (Yea, 200 for 3 weeks is little I guess =D )

-Lunch with the family there-

- with my grandma-

- I met (saw) President Ma, the President of Taiwan!! felt good about it. ^^, -

- The Sisters from Mother Theresa's org -

- Tika, INA friend and 2 Japanese friends: Ai & Erico -
Taken at Wufenbu.. Man, I love Wufenbu!

- Yeay, drive the car! -

Family picture!

- At Keelung -

- View from Grand Hotel Presidential Suite -

- Mom and Dad in front of Taipei 101. They look cute, don't they? :p -

- At Danshui, sunset -

- At Chiang Kai Sek Memorial Building -

2 weeks of traveling

I am back for a while to post about my travel stories for the past 2 weeks..

It started on 5th Sept. My parents, my grandma and I left for Taiwan. We were there for a week. Everything was the same there since I left 4 months back. And I think I do like Taiwan =D. During our stay there, I took my parents to go around, and we walked so much til our legs got really tired. The heat was just bad, and so we always brought umbrella with us whenever we went out. We could not go to other places outside Taipei though cos we were short of time and the condition was not supporting us to go. A lot of places in Taiwan were just messy due to the bad Typhoon happened just a few weeks before we arrived there.

But anyway, I am glad to be back to Taiwan again and met some friends. My grandma was really happy too cos she got to meet up with her brothers again. Not to forget my parents, they were happy too: meeting up with family, traveling around, and just be away for a while from their hectic works back home. Thanks to my brother, who was taking care of the shop back home. =D Yes, he didn't go with us and so he asked me to buy quite few things for me. :p

I hope to be able to post some pictures as soon as I got home.

I am in KL-Msia at the moment. I took a flight from Taiwan to Malaysia. I was hoping to see lots of friends of mine here. But til now, I haven't seen any of my college friends here. But at least I have Tracie - close of mine and the lifeliners.
I went for a camp also with some of the lifeliners and the camp was good. I learned lots of things from that and of course I received so much joy and happiness that I really missed since I was back in Indonesia. What I mean here is the joy of feeling belonging to the community and to be honest, to really feel the presence of God through the Holy Spirit.

I am staying at Tracie's place during my stay in KL. It's in Bukit jalil, quite far from Subang and Tracie's working. So I sometimes find it not difficult, but just quite troublesome whenever I wanna go to Subang. But then again, everyone is there, so I sometimes have no choice but to go there. Praise God that everything goes well so far. Thanks also Crisable for her hospitality and allowed me to spend few nights in here house, though I like to kacau her most of the time. hehe..

Today I take a 'day rest' in the house. Packing up things, so that I can roughly know how much more I still can buy and bring home. lol.
Haven't settled the flight ticket from Surabaya to Balikpapan yet though, even for the transportation to go to LCCT, and where will I spend my last night here. Not because many ask me to stay in their house but, it's because Tracie's working and my flight is in the afternoon.

Anyway, I hope I can take Tracie along for this coming Sunday mass. ^_^

Will post another story on the next post..


God bless!

Birthday request

Dearest friends!!

Thanks for your birthday wishes and..
Could I get your favour as my bday present? hehe.
It's very simple, you just simply click on this link and click on the "I Like it".
http://www.youtube.com/group/travelandlivinghost#play/all/162/1xQZGILR1u8

Thank you!!!! ^^

Godbless!

How it feels to be lonely..

Could I share some of my deep personal feeling here?

Emo attack's on. Well,to be honest, yes, i've just watched Korean drama- thought to always be touching drama most of the time..
I am somehow feeling a lil lonely here. Although I have family around, it's still different if I were with my friends around.
It's as weird as how it may seem.. When I was surrounded by friends, I wanted to be with family, but when I am with fam, I want to be with friends some time. Well, that's a Human Nature, I guess. Always want to belong to others..

There are things which I don't feel to share with my mom, or my dad, even my brother. Whereas, when I am with my friends, I could just talk abt things, what I am feeling right now, my thoughts, my dreams, etc.. Have you ever felt the same?

This makes me miss my friends, everyone whom I used to close with, or just anyone I knew before..

I could say that I have no friends around here. There are act. one or two.. Still, it's diff. The connection is just not there.. One I think is because we have been living in a different environment, so it takes time for us to sew back a hole that was existed.. And another one, we do close but I don't know why everytime we talk, it tends to end up me being the listener. However, i do enjoy listening to her stories and i know i can share stories to her, too. But somehow the words just do not come out. There's something that makes me not to share with her..
And now i guess i will still end up living in my hometown. Not that i don't like it, i just don't feel like doing so. But far more than that, I still in my believe that God has prepared something great for me in the future. :-)

Anyways, I just miss my friends and I need someone to talk to sometimes. Again, Human Nature.. ^^

Mother Mary

I heard this story from a friend.. I thought it was touching and awesome!
A: My friend (a woman-initially a Catholic) said that it's fine with her if she has to convert to Christian, following her husband.. But, she CAN'T let go Mother Mary..

It struck me to realise and reflect on How Important 'a' Mother Mary to one.. The relationship that couldn't be broken no matter what.. ^^

Gbless!