Only in His time

I am glad that I've finally decided on something. This is about the job offer that I was talking about at the previous post. I chose to work in Hotel. Will start working next Monday, March 1.

I hope that this job will last longer than the previous one :) and this would be something that I really look forward to.

Thanks to many of my friends who have been praying for me and be there to comfort me :). Really appreciate it all!

As Today's reading talks about Matthew 7:7 which says:
"Ask and it will be given to you, search and you will find, knock and the door will be open for you".

There's a story about a junior highschool boy who asks his dad to get him a motorbike. For his dad loves him so much that he gives him that motorbike, although it is not the right time for the boy to have it, as he is underage and it's illegal. Then one day the boy got into accident and had his legs amputated.

And after reading the meditation, which asks us to think about all the things that God has given to us and the things that are yet given, not because He doesn't want to, but He knows what's best for us and when is the best time to give it.

I think back about the things that I currently asked Him for, the job. Nevertheless, He didn't so easily give me what I asked for, yet He made me going through a lot of thoughts, confusion, etc. That was really a discernment period on this job -+2 weeks. But I believe it is all worth the result. I wanted something MORE that the previous job, something challenging and He gave it. But as I said, after I really discerned if it is what's best for me at the moment. Most of all, I believe that He has a plan for me in the future and this is one of the steps I need to take in order to reach that future. Just like the staircase, you need to take the steps one by one to reach the next floor. The future is on the last floor that's so much higher than where I am right now. But He will guide me step by step, for sure. :)

So what about you? Have you thought about the things He's done for you? what do you want lately? Have you asked Him for it? Ask Him, pray, discern, and most importantly, keep this in mind, that it's only in His time that it'll be the best for you to get what you want :), cos when that happens, that's when you actually really Need it.

God bless.

My testimony

Why am I a Catholic? Why did I choose to be become a Catholic?
Reasons for the 'Why' question often pops up at time that I've never expected, although I've been writing about it, through sharing/testimony, yet not in a direct point of view. Hence, when it DOES pop up, I might get blank or at least have little ideas of what to share about. Like what happened few weeks ago, a friend of mine asked me how I became a Catholic, knowing that I was not one before. At the moment when she asked me, I was like.. trying to figure out words to explain but what I found were words that are far beyond. In other words, things that are mostly only discussed by the Christians, like the Church history, future (eternal life) and stuff, but NOT so much as I am just like a Catholic baby. So as a result I made her even more confused. :( Thus, I decided to just end it there, not talking further.

Since then, I asked a Catholic friend of mine about the Why question, and thank God for her, she reminded me about the simple things that God has done in our lives and those are simply basic reasons of why I became a Catholic. Thus, I decided to share some that I can recall at this point of time.

I find PEACE that I've never felt before, especially when I am in God's house (Church). I can share anything in mind that I can't share with other people, even when I want to cry, I can cry easily there and I know God listens to me and He's there to comfort me. If you have experienced this before, I am sure you know how it feels. :)

God is love. Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. (cf.1 Corinthians 13:4). This basically summarizes everything. True love makes everything beautiful in this world. Imagine when there's no love, there's no God, we all might just be filled with lust, everything we do is based on lust, which leads us to unhappiness in the end. Lust is at a moment of time whereas Love is forever.

I now realize how important Mother Mary for us, Catholics. A lot of Christian denominations do not believe in Mother Mary and they think we worship her. In fact, we don't worship her, but we honour her as Jesus' mother. We know that a son will never reject whatever his mother asks him for, and just like Jesus, He wouldn't ignore His mother. So we pray with Mother Mary and ask her to intercede for us. In many cases, Novena and Rosario prayers really end up with the Best result, for me and many of my friends. Just like Jesus, She hears our prayers,too. And although we don't say it, she knows our hearts within.

My emotions are much controlled now. For God is always there to remind me whenever I do wrong or whenever others might test me. When we're making efforts to be close to Him, we are being sensitive to the situation around us. If there weren't something greater than ourselves, we will never be humble, for we think we're the best in everything, but in fact, we are NOT. Who are we? we're just human. We make mistakes, but how we know we make mistake if we don't know what's good? See, there's always something better/greater thanus that 'rings' us whenever we make a mistake..

Catholic friends are really a blessing to me. They're always there for me. Whenever I need someone, God gives them to me, it can be in the presence of a person or two, or through media telecommunication like internet or phone or sms. And no matter what my story is, they're there to listen and to comfort me. I believe God uses them for that. They just never ignore / avoid to help me and their advices are indeed Really comforting me. Not only Catholic friends in fact, I have some close friends who aren't Catholics and they are a blessing, too. :)

Overall, I could say that I've been changed so much as a person. Those who know me from who I was and who I am now, realize about it much better that I myself do, although there's still a lot of things that I am lacking of.

This is a lil sharing from me.

-Small things can make a difference-

God bless.

Greater than..

Think about this:

"If you don't believe in something greater than yourself, you'll never do anything greater than yourself."

God bless.

Interviews that will end up with a choice to be made.

In order to get a better working environment as well as the job itself, I've decided to quit my current job..

So happened a friend of mine, Lina, told me that there's this hotel that opened job vacancy. I looked through it and I applied for the job (yeap, this is the one I was talking about before).. Then last week, I so happened again, bought a local newspaper (to kill the time during office hour on Saturday). Then I saw a job vacancy offered at Silk Air, but as an Accountant. Without further thinking, I was already planning to apply for this job. So this week (on Tuesday), I went to the Silk Air's office to give my CVs. But they closed already by the time I reached there, and the bell boy was kind enough to offer me help to give it to them on the next day. And again, without further thinking, I gave it to him (was a bit worried though if he was not going to give it. hehe. But still have to be positive.). And I got called on the next day (so he did give it to them =D) for an interview. And I went on day after. The people are friendly incl. the boss, who's a Catholic Singaporean Chinese. The interview went well and they seemed interested to recruit me (x kidding =D).

Anyway, they called me again on the next day for a second interview. Again, it went well except when it comes to the salary. I was kinda surprised that a company like Silk Air offers a low range of salary :|. We basically dealed with everything except for that.. but they'll to nego with the Singapore office (at least that's what they said).

OHh, before I went for the second interview, I actually called the hotel manager where I applied before :) And he asked me to come for interview as well. So yesterday, I had 2 interviews, airline vs hotel. I was offered a position as a GRO and it seems interesting as well, except the working hours. You know hotel = flexibility..

Haven't been sleeping well for the past 2 days because of this! :( cos I am afraid that I might make a not-so-right decision for myself.
Even after discussing with my parents, both have different opinions, OH! but basically, my dad also thinks that both careers are good. I got even more confused then..

I have told my boss about my plan to quit and he said he will get back to me next week (after telling the big boss first).

And while I was waiting for some interviewees to answer some questions on the paper (my company had interview this morning to look for a finance staff, that's why also I told him earlier this morning so that he could prepare for another one to replace me), I decided to pray Rosary. And while praying and asking for direction, I felt that hotel would be a better choice for me, despite all the over-time and flexible working hours. Although I might not be able to serve in the church, but there was this thought.. "I might not be able to serve in the church, but serving can be anywhere, including in my workplace. When I serve people with love, I serve God too, because that love also comes from God.." Is it right? Let me know if it's a wrong thought. :)

I hope if I am really going for hotel in the end, it'll be a better choice.. (although I'll miss those free tickets to Singapore! :(

Next Tuesday going to meet the GM of the hotel while the airline, will only be around Friday since the people in Spore are on holiday - CNY!

I am going to rest my mind for a little while during this weekend (hopefully) and just have fun with family and friends =D
Let the stress only come back next week! hehe.

Happy Valentine's Day and Happy Chinese New Year!!! ^_^
Go get lots of LOVE and lots of ANGPAO!!!!


God bless!

my God-mother

Last night I dreamed about my Godmother. It's been a few year since we last talked/met. In fact, there was a misunderstanding/issue going on between us. But honestly, I have a very little idea of what made it so.. we had not really talked since then..
In my dream, I put all efforts to talk to her and unexpectedly, she said that she thought I was the one making a gap between us and she was afraid to come to me and talk. -_-". After that, I was so relieved that nothing actually made her angry or whatsoever to me..
But in fact, I still think there was something that made her disappointed with me and therefore, she MADE that gap... And I am too afraid to start asking about it..

Deeply in my heart, I miss her.. even more, she's my God-mother, although she's a year younger than me..Just wish her all the best and I pray that she may walk faithfully in God throughout her life journey..

Lately..

Last night and today I finally have satisfied myself with the internet! After a long long while I couldn't go online with a computer. fiuhh, happy! ^_- Today my colleague was so nice to let me use the IP address of the other computer so that I can go online.

Anyway, it's been some time since I last blogged. And now I don't know what to write already..-_-"

Oh ya! Been so into Christian Bautista lately [hehe!]. A handsome, romantic, and talented Philippino singer who's so famous lately here since he comes here [Indonesia] quite often and has a duet with the local singer. Most of all, he's a Catholic ^_- . Hence, I've been browsing youtube, watching his performances, until following him on twitter [hehe!]. It's been a long time though since I last was a really big fan of an artist/singer.. (last was Westlife I think ;p)

Other than that, I was reading my friend's blog in multiply and I like to read her blog so much, the way she writes things is just simple and yet meaningful and really interesting. Reading blogs pushes me to the realisation that I gotta improve my english! esp. the vocabs. ;p that's something good, isn't it? Well, that means I HAVE to try to read books then. yes, I HAVE to try..

Ohh, just to let you know that I was badly sick last week! I was just lying on my bed for consecutive 5 days! It was THAT bad. I got what I think it was Vertigo. (Is it the same in English? I don't know). It's kind of headache where you feel everything around you is just turning round and round, happens when your eyes are open! So you can just imagine that I closed my eyes most of the time during that time. I couldn't even go to see a doctor since I couldn't even get up. However, on the 3rd day (Friday) I forced myself to go to see one since it didn't get any better although my mom did see a doctor, tell him what was happening to me and get the medicine. Thanks be to God I was recovering soon after the 2nd doctor. I managed to go for Sunday afternoon mass although wasn't so good in that Sunday morning.
Because of that, I failed to complete my 365 days daily reading + Rosary + Catena.. and not able to go for a Recollection with some Church friends :( But NO, I shall not blame anything for what had happened, for "Everything happens for a purpose". What's more important is that God is always by my side ;)

Now, about my job.. I was told by a friend that there's a job vacancy in one of the 4** hotels here. So I sent my Resume via email and though it was after the deadline, I still got a call from the HR Manager of that hotel and asked for interview. Unfortunately, he cancelled the appointment that time and asked if I could go on another day, but the day that was requested was during working hours, so I asked if we could reset the day & time. They said okay and would call me back, but until now they haven't called me again.
That time after he called, I was really confused.. if I'd like the job offered, that means I'd have to resign from my current job, and I just don't know how to do so, I mean.. you know I've just worked here for 2 going on 3 months. But the better thing is that I am still under probation and my contract ends this Feb 23rd :). And now, as we all know, time flies, I am really hoping to go for the interview and see if I would like it and if yes, I will soon have to tell my boss.
Please pray for me ya. Thank you so much in advance! ^-^

That's basically what's been happening in my life lately.

Take care all. God bless!

p.s: je vous presente Xtian Bautista ;)

as day goes by..

My boss didn't come to work today and therefore, my colleague managed to get his internet IP address to be able to go online (smart colleague! hehe).
My colleague is now not in the office, so I got permission from him to use his computer :)

Currently I am sort of having dilemma about my job.. On one hand, it's a very relaxing job, I don't have overtime, even I always have time to play games while at work. (upps..). But on the other hand, I feel that I am not gonna improve myself if I am just stuck on this job. Basically what I do is sending mails, typing letters, requesting for tickets and such basic management tasks. I feel no challenges at all. And as an ordinary human being, I consider about the salary as well. Although there was an increase in my salary which I didn't expect before, it's still... you know..

2 weeks ago I was having this discussion with my cousin about opening a cafe where we'll have Bubble tea as our unique point of sales (hardly find bubble tea here) and other snacks/desserts. We're thinking of a more relaxing cafe as a place to chit-chat rather than a restaurant cause restaurant, we need more people and a cook, which means higher costs.
We were so excited when we were talking about it, we made a draft concept of how it's going to be.. I like those cafes in Kuching though :)

However, lately I was pretty busy with friends who came over for a friend's wedding and I fell sick days after even til now. Still having flu and cough. Haven't been in contact with my cousin again since then..

And in the next 1.5 years, which is mid of next year, there's World Youth Day held in Madrid,Spain - Europe. Really wanna be there, but with the Euros..
O well, I should manage my financial well. I am thinking that I can save more if I don't really eat out and stop taking guitar lesson.. But I am afraid that I am just gonna waste whatever I've started before in learning this classical guitar.. although if I still continue, it takes lots of efforts and courage to be able to 'handle' a guitar..

I am too much, ain't I? hehe..

Legioners Christmas Celebration

Hi friends!

Gosh.. I was supposed to post this 2 weeks ago! but due to the facility limitation etc. I now only manage to post it :)

I had a great time last Monday (read: January 4th), for we had a Christmas party with all Legioners in Balikpapan.

My church was being the host and I was appointed to be the host with another friend of mine.

The simple celebration went pretty well and everyone seemed to enjoy both of the sessions and the food. I didn’t count how many people were present though, but I was told that they were about 70 people came. Praise God!

The sessions that we had were:

- Welcoming words by the MC and also the Father

- Christmas’ message by the Father

- Singing ‘Malam Kudus’ song

- Poem by our 2 friends on Mother Mary

- Sharing by a friend on her experience serving in Legion of Mary in Bandung.

- Dinner

- Farewell

I was planning to play guitar and sing along together, but due to time constraint, I couldn’t make it.. but anyway, I am thankful to God for I know it is not my time yet to serve through music, I am not ready yet, although I’ve practised night before... hehe..

God bless!